i havent even really experienced the truth of each moment recently.

like when i draw , i realise i have always drawn it from the perspective to please others more than it pleases me personally,and thats probably cos.... well many have been praising me.

and im not saying its wrong. but the way i take it,,,take the praises.

i became weak. i took everything thay wasid and made it every thing.EVERYTHING. which it shouldnt be atall.

perhaps like one taste thesaltiness of a soup. but i drank the whole serving of praise and think it was real.

i gotta remind my self ..this is the real world.let me repeat

THIS IS THE REAL WORLD= UR ON UR OWN>YOU ARE ON you're OWN.

that includes ur best friends , u father , ur mother , sur brothers, and sisters. andall the other ppl around u.

one day u are gona be on ur own.
and thus,u have to be hard.or the better word would be versatile.voiciferous about what u belief in , and vehement about what ur enthusiaims is.ONLY then.....can u be harder to the REAL world. and when the direct opposite of praises is thrown at u,u will not onlty be affected.but u will be able to give them a reason to wonder why ur still smiling the face of failure.